I see Her there, beckoning.
The rush takes over as I am drawn forward. I crane my neck,
upward.
Where is the top? I can’t quite see! There is tree, there is dirt, there is rock in the way. A moment of frustration weaves through the fire that is driving me forward.
I take a few steps… I must see where it is that I am being pulled. Where is the exact point that I am to get to? Where is it, so high up above? My neck is strained. Agitation is starting to take over.
In a moment, I remember…
It fills me up just quick, dissolving the threads that urge me to seek out what stands high above; and, taking over my gaze, directs it right here, at all that stands in this one moment.
It’s only here that I can truly see Her, standing fully in Her allness.
I exhale - the deepest of roots uncoiling deep within. I relax into a spaciousness that is waiting, ready to embrace me; to hold me; to nourish me with all that already exists.
I take a full breath, allowing the inhale to continue to expand the moment; allowing my exhale to dissolve away any lingering clinging to that which stands ahead.
My neck relaxes, and I can finally see.
There She stands, tall in front of me - layers of dirt and rock and shrub and tree, dressing Her in a splendid display. How mighty; how beautiful.
In a moment, I am content.
I take a step, and there it is again: a single flame rising through my belly; my chest. I feel the ignition as it awakens every cell it passes through.
I take another step, and another, with each passing step another moment for my whole being to continue to light up. I once more cast my gaze up ahead; up…. up….
I can’t see Her top. There is much that obscures my view.
No matter. I can’t be sure what is up there. Heck, with all these obstacles in the way, how am I to know if I could ever get there!
No matter. There is one thing I can be sure of.
Her, standing there in all her glory. The moment is already whole; complete.
And.
Me, with my childlike grin spreading wide across my face, the fires of wanting, of desire dancing through me
For I have found something worth moving towards. What greater fulfilment is to be owned?